Love Me Later (Her Side)

I got my mama's heart and my daddy's temper Sometimes that fuse runs a little too slander I talk too loud when I'm feeling afraid Then cry in the car on the way home late You see me trying to unlearn those fights, bite my tongue and choose what's right. I ain't perfect, but I swear I'll change. I'm rebuilt in love from a different frame. I'm not trying to be my father's ghost. I'm chasing the grace that my mama showed. Hold your hand instead of walking away If you can see a little wife and a baby in this chaos Just the woman that I'm trying to make of this mess I may not be your dream today But baby, maybe if you don't love me now You'll love me later I saw too many doors slam late at night Watch my mama stand her ground but still choose light She held that house with a worn out smile Packed our lunches, prayed all the while Now when my voice starts to sound like his I pull back quick, take a breath and wish To be more like her, soft, strong and brave Build a home that our kids call safe I'm not playing with your heart of time I'm just learning how to break that line So if you don't love me now, love me later When the past don't hit me like a crater when I've learned to stay and talk it through not shut down and shut out you if you can see Sunday dinners little feet on the kitchen floor trust me while I learn what love is really for I may not be your dream today but baby maybe if you don't love me now One day I'll tuck our babies in Kiss your cheek and lock that grin You'll say you changed, I'll say I grew But really I just fought my way to you We'll toast to the girl who almost ran Cause she was scared to turn into her old man And thank the guy that carried her through To be a mama that looks a lot like the one she knew So if you don't love me, now love me later When I've turned all of this hurt into favor When the house feels warm and the nights feel light And family don't mean we gotta fight If you can hold on to the good you see Under these layers, walk with me through all my broken prayers I may not be your dream today, but baby, maybe You'll roll over someday and whisper, I loved you then But oh my God, I love you even better later that's okay just don't give up on who I'll