Lighthouse In The Flood

If you're there Don't let me sink, yeah I grew up in a house where the walls yell back Where the love fell thin and the hate fell stacked Or slammed like thunder, bottles like rain And the floor knew more than my mouth about pain I learned early how to smile like I'm fine How to hide every fracture behind my spine Friends saw jokes, never saw those nights When I stared at the ceiling just to slow my mind Drowning in a room where the lights turned down Thoughts like a way of trying to pull me to the ground I said, God, if you're real, then you don't want this I'm a ship made of shame and a storm like this Then a still small voice cut through the roar I've come bigger storms than the ones at your door You're my lighthouse in the flood from giving up the fight not with blades of pills just not wanting this life lost in a scroll in the envy and rage feeling like a glitch on an overcrowded page but you met me in the whisper of a midnight prayer and a verse on a screen and a song on the air heard I see every tear that the pillow drank I was there on the nights when you broke it sank I took every blow that they threw at your heart I wore every bruise when they They told you apart You were not what they said Not the names they screamed You were still my child Even when you can't dream Now the storm still hits And the thunder's loud But I'm on into a savior Who walked on the cloud You're my lighthouse in the flood I felt forgotten I felt alone like nobody saw how deep I'd gone but you say in the room when I couldn't breathe and you said I'm right here you can lean on me when the storm says feeling like I did then with the waves on your neck and no strength left to swim call his name in the middle even if it's weak he's been walking on the water for the lost to me he's the God in the fire he's the calm in the storm he's the hole in his hands where our hope was born