If They Only Knew

Woke up to sunlight through a torn banty Decked by the door, no alarm on me Mom left a note, be home by 10 We both knew I'd roll in way past then Hit the curb where the crew all met Black hoodie sticking to the summer sweat Got kids, gate rats, punk rock noise Half my enemies were my best boys Caught from past, we were just out late Told someone's had the underpass gate Then his boards in hand hearts in Every scare set, every loading dock Was our religion till the streetlights talked If they only knew about the midnight flights About spray paint halos under dead mall lights How we bled on rails just to feel alive How we swore we'd never work in nine to five Now I'm dying badge in a cubicle view They see safe and geeking, yeah he's cool But under this polo there's a faded tattoo And a kid they never met Now it's 6 AM with the baby crying Coffee in a mug, suit and tie Car seat clicks where the deck used to ride Got a minivan parked where the cops once sighed Co-workers laugh at my dad joke streak Think I spent prom nights studying Greek They see spreadsheets, cardigans, lunchboxes Like I'm sixteen in that same old crowd Sometimes I catch my face in the subway glass See the ghost or the goth kid looking back and laughing at me They never picture if they only knew cleaning growing up just changing clothes Same loud art in a life that froze. I wouldn't trade my kids my ring my bills But some nights I still bomb those hills so when the world feels depressed and tight I can't flip memories in my mind at night, and I hope my kids find their own weird And a version of me, I'd be proud they knew If they only knew about the songs we screamed About dirt, lawn stages, chasing dumb big dreams How the cops knew names, cause we own that street All the scars on my shits were my front row seats Now I'm packing lunches, signing forms on cue But there's still grip tape in the things I do Yeah, the past still rides and everything new There's a skater in the suit and tie They never know what's true If they only knew I grew up sure, but that kid still skates in view. Yeah! If they only knew If they only knew If they only knew If they only knew If they only knew If they only knew I grew up sure, but that kid still skates in view.